When Will It Be MY Time

Ok.... this is NOT a post on account of Valentine's Day coming up. This is because the subject has been on my mind for a while.

I'm listening to Janet's "I Get Lonely" and the saying that "once you love someone, you always will" is QUITE true. (I bet Miya is grimacing at that statement) Well I wonder why I'm single sometimes. Don't get me wrong, I love being single and not having a commitment, but there are times when I need someone in my corner and who will be that other half. I realize that I must not misunderstand this fact: nobody can receive their other half if they aren't whole themselves.

#NP Cupid - 112 <--- this is so ironic.

I am not saddened by this at all. I walk around campus everyday and see males of all types. Are one of the Tuskegee Gentlemen for me? Or will I have to wait on the future? There is no point in rushing what cannot be rushed.

Also, what am I going to do about me not wanting to be bothered all the time? I think I've answered my question. Once I sit and think of what I have to bring to the table I cannot receive if I'm not in a position to give.

First I have to give HIM (GOD) all of myself before I can give even an ounce of myself to a boyfriend.

this is just another entry into the life and times of me. :)

It's Almost FEBRUARY!!!

This month has moved sooo fast!!! Not quite over yet but I still am SOOOOO ready for Feb. It's the month of my sisters birthday. Also the month of Valentine's Day. PHOOEY!!!! Work study Threads Studying.... didn't put commas because they are seemingly one big task. Anywho just doing a drive by on old Bloggy. LOL TTYL

Katherine Philips: Friend's Mystery

This is a poem discussed in my Women in Literature class.

Come, my Lucasia, since we see
That miracles men's faith do move,
By wonder and by prodigy
To the dull angry world let's prove
There's a religion in our love.

For though we were designed t' agree,
That fate no liberty destroys,
But our election is as free
As angels', who with greedy choice
Are yet determined to their joys. 10

Our hearts are doubled by the loss,
Here mixture is addition grown ;
We both diffuse and both engross,
And we whose minds are so much one,
Never, yet ever, are alone.

We court our own captivity,
Than thrones more great and innocent ;
`Twere banishment to be set free,
Since we wear fetters whose intent
Not bondage is, but ornament. 20

Divided joys are tedious found,
And griefs united easier grow ;
We are ourselves but by rebound,
And all our titles shuffled so,
Both princes, and both subjects too.

Our hearts are mutual victims laid,
While they, such power in friendship lies,
Are altars, priests, and off'rings made ;
And each heart which thus kindly dies
Grows deathless by the sacrifice. 30

My teacher spoke on it from the point of her being too "in love" with her best friend. I believe that indeed her letter was a bit more personal than should be between two women, but I don't think it to be that deep. Having read the passage twice for clearer understanding, I came to the conclusion that she is speaking of the bond that women have. A bond that a woman and man (even in marriage) could never have. <-- which is kinda the point my teacher made. (minus the in love thing) What do YOU think? :)

Love...

What is love?
Who loves?
Is it the man with the money.. Or the man who can barely feed his family?
No matter what happens you HAVE to love something, someone, or some idea.
Ok so basically I want everyone to know that LOVE doesn't take alot of effort.

HAVE A WONDERFUL MONDAY!!! :)

Am I REALLY that hard??

Am I too hard in some peoples opinions? I like to speak and mean what I say. I think I am really honest in a blunt sort of way. Honestly BLUNT... maybe Bluntly HONEST sounds more correct. LOL. I know that I am a literalist and being that sort of person has deemed me to loathe certain situations, phrases, etc.. I have kinda decided that maybe I am. Or.... maybe they just don't understand. The way I grew up was this: "You don't have an opinion. If I want it I will ask for it. Anything you do wrong is NOT up for discussion. Its what I say. My word is LAW." That caused me to be VERY quiet growing up. Plus I always felt awkward around people like I wasn't good enough. Like I wasn't on their level. I don't like the word "level" because I feel like I will never be on a step ladder. I am on a road. Maybe 5 miles back is where these people decided to rest. I will keep trucking. LOL.. Anywho, just my thought. :)

I'm chilling right now. Not on the beach but in my apartment. :) same fun, diff environment. Not trying to bring sand to the beach anyway. LOLz

WORK + SICKNESS = MAJOR CRAP WEEK

I have been feeling icky for almost a week. Also, I've been working like crazy. This cold or whatever has caught up to me in the worst way because my body is in shambles and I cannot believe I have so much work to do. I'm praying that GOD sees me through a speedy recovery.

SNOW DAY!!!!! (but where's the snow) 0_o

I absolutely LOVE LOVE LOVE my university!!!! TUSKEGEE UNIVERSITY ROCKS!!!!! But.... the state of Alabama is in a sort of "shut down" due to weather thats supposed to be here. Its just cold and rainy outside. No snow storm.... no hail storm.... nothing. It is quite alright though because school AND work was cancelled today. I get to work at my work study job tonight so I won't have to worry about missing out on hours. :)

Weird?

Whats the true definition of WEIRD?
Nobody really knows....

But I had a conversation with someone over the Christmas break,
and he said no one is WEIRD. Everyone is entitled to be different;

Those differences are what tend to be categorized as WEIRD.

Ok... point blank. NOBODY is WEIRD. I prefer to be different and it makes me one
bad ass chick. #ijs