What Looks Like CRAZY On An Ordinary Day

This novel has grabbed a hold of me and my life in the best possible way. It has made me conscious of the way things truly are from the eyes of a woman who made bad decisions but has the will to LIVE on. This is a New York Times Bestseller and I would not doubt it for a minute. I am a few chapters away from being finished and I thirst for the story to never end. Ava is a woman who is human. She has feelings and wants to be cared about. My black people are not appreciative as they should be. Speaking from a humanistic view point.... not one person on the face of this earth is as appreciative as they should be for their culture and ways. We are here only because the people before us have put forth the EFFORT to want to bring about a change. The only negative in life is refusing to focus on the positive. My only wish is for us to just THINK for a second. Think about the past... think about the present... think about the future. Think about what it takes to help the next person succeed. I know and understand that this is a "dog-eat-dog" world but with most of the dogs not knowing how to feast appropriately, they wind up only bringing hell to the masses of other dogs who are waiting for their shot. What is lavish luxury if you have no one to share it with? I totally agree that people need to work for everything they have but most people were influenced by someone in their lives and that single influence helped them to become the person they are. Not ONE successful person can HONESTLY say they achieved only by their solo efforts. That would be a lie that I am quickly to rebuke. I tweeted a few of my thoughts on the ways of my generation in contrast with generations before me. Anybody from 30 and younger were apart of the crowd that made things worse than what they already were. When things are being handed to you, you tend to get lax. Until you can understand the struggle or even understand more of yourself then you will be better off. And more successful.... We are a proud people. We all make mistakes but our history makes us proud. Why stop there? Why let our history STAY history? Do we not have more things to bring to the table than what is already set before us? Wake up..... Wake up and see the world before you and the work ahead of you. It's not a game.... your health is not a game.... your relationships are not games.... your education is not a game.... In my life, things happen for a reason. I was wonderfully created by a higher being that shaped me into a glorious person. I am who I am because of what I have been through. Though I may not truly like what I have been through, I have no choice but to respect it because without it I would not have the knowledge and understanding I have today. So when things look like they aren't going a certain way, just think: There is somebody wishing to experience (in my opinion) what looks like crazy on an ordinary day. Beauty is in the eye of its beholder y'all.

SICK??

OMG I canNOT be getting sick right now. BTW you guys missed my birthday. It's ok. I only turned TWENTY ONE!!!! YAY!!!!! I had a blast and was so excited. (This is also an update of how I've been doing) Tuskegee lost yesterday and I am not traveling to an away game unless they start winning some games. Went out last night and that was bomb.com!!!! I love having fun. Me and E are gr8!!! I feel so thankful to have him around. He makes me smile and laugh and oh by the way he fell in the bushes at his house and I could not stop laughing... lmaoooooooo Anyway, eating soup right now because I feel like im getting sick. I have so much on my plate that I cannot afford getting sick. So let me eat this soup and do this work and go to sleep. (well talk to my Scruffy first) :) just checking in.