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The first disagreement is the worst..... Maybe I am wrong. Maybe he is. But all I know is that I hate it. I care about him too much to have this right now...... :( The topic: how I handle disagreements and etc. #NP Usher - Here I Stand

IT'S OFFICIAL!!!!!!

I hereby declare that I, SDot, am NO LONGER on the market. EJ and I made it official on June 26th. :) I am so happy and its been a long time coming. I am ready to love this man and have him love me back. He makes me feel a way that I haven't felt since the puppy love when I dated AJ in high school. That was a childhood thing and to see me blossom on such a larger level is astonishing. What I thought it was back then was NOT how it is now. He makes me laugh, smile, think, blush, admit, consider, and more. When I went home for the 4th, I thoroughly enjoyed the time we spent together. It flies by though!!! We jokingly talk about it and he always says that "it ain't nothing but the devil". I believe him lol. God saw for it that I could meet and be with such a wonderful person. The most wonderful man in the whole wide world. There is so much that I want to give him over time. We both agree that we want a long term relationship so this is the first step to forever. :)

I want you to know how he took care of me when I was wasted. Some would think the encounter would be embarrassing for me but not at all actually. We were drinking and the drinks got the best of me. He helped me all night. Wiping my forehead and neck.... taking me to and from the bathroom..... helping me in the bed..... checking on me and sitting with me all night.... (even though there was something else going on in my house and he didn't have to do it.) I can't get over the fact that this man who I had just met decided to take care of me like he had known me for years. Nothing else mattered to him at the time but me. He respected me and treated me like I was so fragile and precious. His touch is mesmerizing.

I miss him right now.... being in summer school I can't be with him how I would like to. Now Playing: Heaven Can Wait - Michael Jackson. << why is this song singing to my heart? I want to be back in his arms again. With him there is only US. Everything else disappears.

How great is my God that he blessed me with Eric. Wanna hear something funny? We grew up together.... indirectly. I was in the same grade with his brother in middle school but we were all at the same school. I never knew him but I know ALL the people he hangs with. (0_o) Took me for a loop too. How can we be so close but so far? Another funny thing to tell is how when I first met him I knew I wanted to be with him. He felt the same... but we didn't tell each other. We spoke of it to my play brother (his best friend) Vincent. My bro Vincent is also a blessing to my life because if it wasn't for him bringing EJ with him down to my house I would have never had my life change for the better. He got to see me for who I was that weekend as I with him. I believe in destiny and love at first sight. I told him a few days ago that I was falling... he said "Baby I've already fell... i'm just waiting on you."

Thinking about him brings tears to my eyes because he is what I need in my life. It is an incredible thing to find someone and have them to complete you in a way that fills you up and makes you think every day with them will be great and magical. He is more than a man to me. He is my best friend... my sharer of secrets... my amen corner... my wake up call.... the person who heals me. I always have a song to sing!!!

"And there will be heartaches and pains, yes it will
But through it all, we will remain
In this life, we all know
Friends may come, and they may go
Through the years I know
I will stay
And in the end I know that we'll find
Love so beautiful and divine
We'll be lovers for a lifetime, yeah
And I'll stay with you
I will stay with you"
- John Legend